Private to the SDF

[twofacedshark]

Well, since Fujiko-san requested it… I am suppose to be in charge of the kids while the grownups go to somewhere… with Mello-san…

Hum... Ipin-chan... Lambo-chan... Everyone that was stayed on the ship... would you guys like to throw a “baking cake party”?

And Mello-san...
Good luck... on the mission...

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Private // Unhackable

[doubleppk]

Thank-you Akito <3

See if you can get Killua to wait on the race for a couple of weeks so I can join you guys please. I should be able to run/breathe normally by then.

[sstolerate.livejournal.com]

Lambo wants grapes.

[twofacedshark.livejournal.com]

Hum… a grape cake then?

Re: Private // Unhackable

[twofacedshark.livejournal.com]

I'll give my best!!
... Have a safe trip.

[caffinatekillua]

Since when did Fujiko have any say over SDC matters? She's a visitor.

And only half of the adults are leaving.

[twofacedshark.livejournal.com]

She asked me so I’ll do it.
Want to help baking the cakes?

[caffinatekillua]

Look I don't care if you want to play with the kids. It'll give Gon and Me a break. But I'm kinda ticked off someone not on our crew is going around asking other people not part of the crew to do stuff for the crew while half the crew goes off on lame missions before they LEAVE OUR CREW. Everyone played together last night when people didn't think things through so obviously we handled it.

I'm not even that mad at you. Amazingly enough.

Private to Killua

[doubleppk]

On that note, if you have a problem with me, take it up with me. I'm sorry for getting involved in crew matters when I'm not part of the crew (like hacking this post) and I can't give you my reasons for doing so. I asked Akito to keep an eye on the kids because Mello doesn't want him on the mission and I don't want him getting hurt. I asked Jyabura to help teach him things; not as a crew matter but again, a personal one. If there's something you wish me to do to help your crew, ask. But I won't be able to simply step back and not do things at times simply as a part of who I am. I have my reasons for seeing this mission go through and my reasons for not wanting Akito hurt. At least he promised not to wear the blades inside the ship.

[twofacedshark.livejournal.com]

But… I though it would be fun for us to eat cakes all day… and I was even making some new candy’s and stuff…
You… don’t like sweets?
And if Mello-san had a mission to do then it was something important!

Not private except whatever protection Akito put on the post

[caffinatekillua]

Look. I don't care if you hack, I don't know why it's private to begin with. I have nothing to hide. But we don't take orders from people. And you don't have a say because you're not on our crew. He doesn't have a say because he's not on our crew. If I have any say in it he won't EVER be on our crew. You don't just come onto someone's ship ignore their wishes and do what you want and expect them to be cool with it. You can like Akito all you want, I don't give a crap. First of all, what the hell, that guy is totally screwed up and you 'put him in charge' of the kids. Look lady, you've known us for what a week now? I don't care who you're dating or what your personal control issues are and I don't really care. We've done just fine for half a year now without you running around telling us how we should run things. You have no idea who we are and what we're capable of. And don't think playing a game and giving us presents will change that. We may be kids but it's not like we can be bought. If you think you can take your stuff back.

[caffinatekillua]

You can make whatever. I'll be by later I have to get some stuff done first.

Mello's doing this for his ego. It's not actually important.

Private anyways

[doubleppk]

I don't bother trying to buy people. Bribes never work. People who can be bribed always demand more and will get it from any source that is available. Presents I gave were just that. Presents because I felt like it. I didn't come to interfere with your crew and I know you have your reasons for not liking Akito. So be it.

I didn't actually "put him in charge" of the kids, I was hoping you guys would have the smarts to be in charge of him. You ARE smart and therefore I assumed you'd see through that even if he has a knack for phrasing things in just the perfect way to make people want to kill him. If he is such the wildcracker you believe him to be then you should be keeping an eye on him at all times to make sure he doesn't do something batshit crazy, or has your life experience not taught you that yet?

Since we're dropping the viel, yeah, I'm testing you all. Because I don't want to get myself into a trap I can't get out of, simple as that. If that offends you, I'll try to make up for it but I'll continue to do so. I actually do like you, and I like the others so I do not wish to see harm come to you. Mello may not care but I don't like seeing kids; PARTICULARLY smart ones who should be able to take care of themselves get hurt.

And you're right, who I date doesn't matter. The only problem it is it effects me if I choose to come to this ship and I won't be watching him loyally protect people who aim to stab him in the back. But don't kid yourselves, I'm doing this to everyone.

[ooc: Athena you mad at me? I'm sorry Fujiko's such a bitch...]

[caffinatekillua]

I think you were the icing on the annoyance cake to be honest.

You don't have a clue how smart I am and if you think you can test me and somehow I'll show my hand, you should think again. We've always got an eye on Akito. You don't know what my life experience has taught me. But let's be logical here, I'm alive, I've taken care of the biggest threat he poses not that you're any help there, trying to give it back to the schitzo. We've dealt with a lot worse people than a schitzophrenic kid with bladed Rollerblades.

Look I don't care if you want to get the height and width of us. I don't trust anyone either, ask Gon. But people can earn my respect. It's not through running around going off half cocked and making assumptions. I'll decide how I feel about you through your actions. And if we run any missions, through those. And don't think you're the only one who knows their way around computers. I'm not bad but my brother's the best. If I paid him, he'd get into the NSA or MI-5 servers without batting an eye. Don't think anything you post will be safe just because you screen and encrypt it. I just can't be hacked to bother right now. I know Jyabura likes you. And I like him. So I'm willing to step aside and let you hang out with us when you feel like it, whatever. But don't think that gives you free reign to assume anything about us. Or tell us what to do. MAYBE we would have been ok with suggestions before.

I think it would be in your best interest not to worry about how at the very least Gon and I, handle ourselves. We're pro hunters which means nothing in this world but it's insulting to hear someone suggest that we're so stupid they need to watch our backs after meeting us a week ago, because otherwise we might get hurt.

I hope you'd have the decency to think Jyabura could judge for himself who he can trust. If I was him I'd be pissed you even hinted he'd need your judgment of us as well. Your approval of his friends. You don't have to trust any of us. We're not asking you to. But right now I wouldn't vote to let you join the crew either.

By the way, Gon hates to be tested. Just a warning.

Private

[doubleppk]

I'll keep that in mind.

I think if you choose to follow and hack my posts you'll find that I'm not what you're expecting. And I'm not getting his rollerblades back to him now am I? Or did you forget?

I'm not as worried for me as I am for him. Don't tell me to just trust his judgement, it's not that I don't trust his judgement, I wouldn't like you at all if I didn't. And I do like you, because of him. If he likes you, then there's a good reason. But I won't step back and let any harm come to him from ANY source and unless I'm as sure as I can be, I'll be a lot more annoying and overprotective. We don't operate the same way but I know myself, if I don't do this it'll be worse. I might not make friends from it but I don't make friends. You might be willing to step back and trust that I won't hurt him, but I'm not willing to bet that without knowing my odds better.

And I'm not telling you what to do. I might try to distract you but I don't order anyone. I don't take orders well and I don't expect anyone else I have any ounce of respect for to follow mine. And whether you want it or not, you've got my respect Killua. I don't consider you weak because you ARE smart, and if you made it on a crew like this for this long, you're strong too. I might occasionally trick people out of old habits that I'm underestimating them but it's a habit, so understand whether it counts for nothing to you or not, I'm being open now and there's no way in hell I'd underestimate you.

I wasn't testing Gon... ironically.

And I DO want to train with you. I would have if not for the broken ribs. I still intend to if you want to. It's been a long time since someone actually had something that could make me better and I enjoy that sort of thing, as I'm sure you can understand.

[caffinatekillua]

Oh I didn't forget. It was the fact that you even thought to try.

Jyabura can take care of himself. I'm not even remotely worried about what you'll do to him.

This crew is a team. Gon and I built it from the ground up. We rotate captainship and there are orders given sometimes just for fun even, but the majority of things done on board are teamwork. We usually just agree. Although there's been a lot less discussion lately which is another reason I'm in a bad mood.

I don't believe that at all. If what you're saying is true you're always testing everyone. Also if you have any hopes to gain respect from our crew you'll stop making everything private. What have you got to hide so badly? Anything you say to me I'll share if it's important with them. So it's a waste of your time and effort to be screening things.

I'll train with you still. Heck I'd train with you even if I thought you wanted to kill me. Just makes it more exciting.

[pinzutimebomb.livejournal.com]

Ipin likes strawberry cake.

[doubleppk]

I can definitely respect that.

This mission makes me nervous in a lot of ways. Something that you have to keep kids out of and wait for specific captains...

I'll make you a promise here and now. Yes, I'm always testing everyone. I do it because I have to. Jyabura does it too, as he should. Maybe you're strong enough that you don't have to but that doesn't make me feel safer about it. But from here on anything I devise involving your crew, I'll discuss with you because it IS your cew. If I step over the line, tell me and I'll apologize and try to fix it. If you have a question about anything even if it doesn't involve your crew but just because you don't like it, you can always ask me about it.

I hide because it's like testing. It's what I've had to do since I was 3 to survive. If you were raised your whole life being told you'd have to do something every second of every day or die, even if your instincts say something is safe, that fear isn't going to go away. And not even my instincts call this safe and I'll earn your respect being myself or I won't; faking someone else won't help me. You're welcome to go through my locks if you want but don't expect me to stop locking things. I understand where you're coming from; I hate it when people lie to me especially when it's so obvious that it is a lie. It's insulting. So under the principle that you view it akin to that, I'll keep my lines with you open, but I'm still going to instinctually lock things. It's a defense.

[caffinatekillua]

Well first things first. Stop thinking in terms of adults and children. You don't have to protect us. Mello knows I think his mission is ridiculous and excessive. But it's something he enjoys and if he wants to do it more power to him but it wouldn't be a determinant if Gon and I had decided to go along. Even Ipin and Lambo can technically take care of themselves. I wouldn't ever throw them head first into anything but they're both assassins.

I think you should be honest with yourself. Are you testing us for yourself or for him? Because if you know Jyabura you know you don't have to test us for him. Trust me, I'll tell you when I have a problem. Obviously. I didn't realize this post was locked or I would have brought this up to you directly before.

If anyone understands growing up in life or death situations I do. To be honest my family would probably each have a hernia if they realized some of the precautions I don't take. But then again, Illumy is convinced having Gon as a friend is just a whim of mine and I'm just interested in him but I'll eventually kill him. Which by the way, is bullshit. (yeah that's right Illumy, screw you if you're reading this)

Testing? Half the stuff I've seen locked hasn't been anything anyone shouldn't see. And I've seen you drop off into locked stuff because a conversation stops early, so I can guess where some of those are going and again, not really locking material. But I guess if it makes you feel safer, that's your prerogative.

[doubleppk]

Don't assume I DO think it in terms of adults vs. kids. I call Ace a kid. Same with Ryoga. Age means little to me. I've known more 80-year-olds that were idiots and had more 6-year-olds get the better of me than anyone else. It's not a note on your intelligence or abilities. My problem with this mission isn't something I can explain well and so far when I try you get mad at me. Either you get it or don't I guess. Ask Jyabura, perhaps he can.

I'm testing because I feel it needs to be done. Period. Not just for Jyabura, not just for me, just period. I can't do what I need to without it and I want to do so. If you wish, you may put me through any test you wish. Just because something doesn't seem necessary doesn't mean it shouldn't be done. My secrets are my own job to keep, and I do so by not speaking them. Nevertheless, I am not only the keeper of my own secrets and I do not like the idea of risking something that wasn't mine to gamble with.

Good. Stuff like that sucks but you're always better in the long run for it. It's things like that that make me like you.

Wearing my heart on my sleeve makes me nervous but just as you've had your past; in mine anytime someone did that they got stabbed for their efforts. And just because I can handle a stabbing or two doesn't mean I want to invite it in.

[caffinatekillua]

You're the one talking about missions "you have to keep kids out of".

I understand the mission. I just think Mello's an idiot.

I don't test. I observe.

Haha man I don't know why people don't try to stab me more.

[doubleppk]

Tch. Unfortunately it was also a mis-spoke in reference to a coversation I had with Mello regarding the mission. The kids I was talking about keeping out of aren't even in your crew, understand?

You're fun. People enjoy fun things. Stabbing fun things makes them a lot less fun usually. Plus people here are a LOT nicer than where I'm from so that might have something to do with it.

[caffinatekillua]

Yes well you weren't talking to Mello, you were talking to me. I think I can guess what you mean though. Good luck, if he wants the infamy he told me about kids would be a good place to kickstart it.

Haha I'm an acquired taste.

[doubleppk]

While it's not that I confused the two, sometimes I slip up. I'm human, not a computer and there's a lot to keep track of. There's better ways to get infamy. He could just go the Dragon route. Dragon's got the highest bounty in the wole world, and all he had to do was try to convince countries to rebel against the World Government. The sort of thing we were just talking about isn't even enough to get him as a famous as Blackbeard, but this is just a precursor to other things I believe.

I liked you fast enough but things I like I like pretty immediately.

[caffinatekillua]

Hmm.

Yeah well he doesn't have the patience to go convincing governments of anything.

I'm still surprised Richard didn't get a bounty. I guess we didn't leave witnesses. He was destroying whole islands of people. It was all I could do to keep him under control on the boat.

[doubleppk]

Richard? I've been going through some of the archives (takes forever but Jyabura suggested it) but I don't really remember anything about him. I would think an automatic buster call from one man would warrant some attention from the government, witnesses or not. And Jyabura and CP9 are proof that you can't completely kill all humans even with a nuclear bomb. Is Richard still around?

[caffinatekillua]

slaughterurwrld Yeah, he's an undead warlock. It was a pain in the ass sometimes, I'd have to start slicing limbs off to get him to behave. But you gotta admit, an undead warlock is pretty useful.

He's around sometimes when he feels like showing back up but it's been scattered since I got pissed and shot him out the torpedo shaft. If we need a little mindless slaughter I'm sure he'd show up with bells.

[doubleppk]

Undead warlock... Brooke would probably love that.

Sounds... scary. Not so much fun. Admittedly the closest I came to that was some guy who thought he was undead (and wasn't) and a couple zombies/vampires here and there.

This place is strange. Fun... but strange.

[janken-gon.livejournal.com]

I'm sure everyone would like to have some cake after building the fort!

[caffinatekillua]

The wooden boat above water was infested with zombies till a few weeks ago when Gon and I decided to clean it up. Richard left his whole damn army. Took two days.

[doubleppk]

Sounds... creepy. Kind of fun though actually. My favorite games involve shooting zombies usually (preferably Nazi zombies). It's just plain fun. Head-shots are the best. What'd you guys use?

[caffinatekillua]

Mostly we just severed their heads from their bodies. Then dumped them overboard. So just our hands. We saved pieces for Fran though. She was beside herself. We think that's how we ended up with a ghost on the ship for a while.

[doubleppk]

Supposedly decapitating is the most effective way but I never actually want to touch one... They look all slimy. What did Fran do with the parts... erm... maybe I don't want to know.

Yeah that does seem like the kind of thing that would cause a ghost infestation.

[twofacedshark.livejournal.com]

Then I'll try making the biggest strawberry cake ever made.

[twofacedshark.livejournal.com]

Really! You will eat them!
Okay, I’ll try hard to make delicious things when you get back then!
Oh, by the way… I read one of the comments (although I couldn't read the replies...)... fran-san accepted my apply for becoming a member of the SDC… so I am also part of the crew now…
If it makes Mello-san happy then it is important.

[twofacedshark.livejournal.com]

What type of cake would you like? ... Are you Gon-san?

[caffinatekillua]

If you put anything in them that hurts the kids I'll kill you. Just so you know. Giselle helped you out cooking, right?

What do you mean you couldn't read the replies, everything we posted was in your journal it all should have come straight to your e-mail regardless of what Fujiko tried to screen.

HE WHAT?! You're telling me the Fran who is DITCHING US NEXT WEEK told you you could JOIN THE CREW?
#$!@#$!@#

You know what I'd put up more of a fight if I didn't think Gon would just let you in when it's his turn as captain anyway. No rollerblades on the boat. And the first time you try to hurt ANYONE on the crew I will start ripping off body parts. Don't think I'm kidding.

Private because Agito doesn't want trouble with the kids

[twofacedshark.livejournal.com]

I would never do that k…


I won’t fucking say for you to trust me, but don’t fucking go around being fucking mean to Akito. He really fucking wants to fit in and contribute, so stop being a fucking asshole and let him try to be fucking nice.
As for me, I won’t fucking do anything that would fucking make Akito sad. And he would be sad if we went expelled from this fucking ship… So when he wants to fucking leave this, you can fucking start being suspicious, until then enjoy his fucking friendliness!

Not private

[caffinatekillua]

If I was trying to be mean to Akito you'd know it. You don't get to tell me how to react to the guy(s) who force their way onto our boat against our crew's wishes then got one of the guys who's leaving us next week for another crew to say you were part of ours. I'll be suspicious when I want to be suspicious and you can swear all you want about it but I don't care. And I don't trust you within five feet of the kids and since you're IN him, I don't trust him with them either. If that hurts his feelings tough luck and you have only yourself and your apparent Tourette's to thank for that.

[twofacedshark.livejournal.com]

Why you fucking shi


Killua-san… you are still angry for us forcing our way in…
I… cannot change my mistakes but… that one was my fault, not Agito…
So… I am sorry… for all the troubles I caused…
Please… if you don’t trust me I won’t be able to do the tuning right…

1/2

[caffinatekillua]

 

[caffinatekillua]

Look, when you're not being annoying at Lambo's level and Agito's not swearing from here to next Tuesday I can ALMOST put up with you. But I'm not just gonna trust you. You're on the friggin crew (despite my misgivings) though so you don't have to ask permission to join in on crap.

You make the tuning sound complicated.

[twofacedshark.livejournal.com]

Then… you will forgive me?
Well… it is slightly complicated, but it requires the trust of the one that I am tuning towards the tuner and vice versa.
When you feel ready just come to my room.

[[ooc: hum… log? If you want I’ll be at aim]]